A 25 years old married runs girls Seeking advice from People

Hello sir, I really need help, pls hide my id. 

Am 25 years while hubby is 34, I got married at the age of 20, I have 2kids.

I met my hubby in the club. I was a runs girl. We dated for 1year, during our relationship, one day we went out clubbing and my fellow runs girl went home with us, we played games that night, drank and later he had sxx with both of us. 

So from that day he started asking me to bring girls for him and I agreed. I didn't know what I was doing then. We later got married and it continued, later I told him dat we should stop it, that is not right, but he refus3d, den I told his mom what we have been doing cuz I want to stop and I can't stop it on my own I needed help, she got very a*ngry at both of us nd later advised me not to listen to him again which I did for sometime, he changed towards me but I didn't mind.

I will come back from work and meet my friend in my house and I can't do anything, if I talk he will tell me after all we have both fvcked the girl before, he started ab*sing me, calling me names cuz I said I don't want to do it again, later he f0rced me or talked me into doing it again, sincerely I really wanted to stop that life but he was not helping me.

So last year I stopped totally and since then I have not had peace of mind cuz I started going to church and he got angrry and told me that is now I want to repent, that am living a b0ring life that am going to get old quick cuz I don't want to live dat life again. So I told him no problem, he keeps sleeping out almost every day, telling me dat he is going to change if I start bringing girls for us to have sxx together , if not he will not stop ch3ating on me. I don't want that life anymore. I really really want to change , and I don't love him anymore, the love is gone, but my problem now is my kids , his family will not let me go with them, and I can't stay a day without them. Pls I really need help, I no that I have m3ssed up, I av also disapp0inted God. Pls I need your advice and prayers and not your ins*ult. Thank you .